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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
From the Mixed Up Files of Paperback Writer
Hello, my name is Paperback Writer. Today is Tuesday, June 19, 2007.
From the mixed up files of Paperback Writer.
Journal #10.
December 27, 1993
Monday
You may hate me for the rest of my life. But I can't help that. I've finally gotten what I wanted to say out and I'm glad I did it.
I'm just sorry that it took me nearly two months to say it.
I've finally gotten over you. And if you happen to forgive me for writing this letter...well, you have my address and my phone number. I can't wait around and let the rest of my life pass be by.
What you did to me, I will eventually forget. And it may be a mistake to forgive you of it...but it will be my mistake and not your's.
So...be happy...with or without me. I know you've already done so. This is more a plea to myself to do the same.
Pat has nothing to worry about and you may tell her that.
I'm sorry I got mad at you. But I still feel that I'm justified to do so.
Write soon...please.
(I've removed the video...don't go looking for it!)
Keep in mind, this video won't be up for long. Perhaps two weeks. Then, I'm taking it down. Why? Just because, okay?
And now for a detailed analysis of my seventeen year old self.
Yes, Chris this journal entry is part of the Alpha saga.
If I am correct, I believe that this entry was prompted by Alpha dumping me. And this girl - Pat - was the one who prompted him to do so. Don't you love how I'm "finally over" him but in my last sentence I beg him to write soon?
What the f'k is that? Okay, okay. I was seventeen. I'll allow myself a little slack but do you know how much longer it took me to really be truly over him? Yeah, that's right. Another three years. Yes, obsessive thing, wasn't I?
Crap like this actually embarrasses me. How in the world does Loki put up with me? I must have done something right in a former life to deserve him.
But again, I'm the harshest critic of myself that comes to mind.
Anyway, in case you are wondering, why I focused on the picture of Loki and me, I thought it was more interesting that say...focusing on my computer. Which could possibly just be the most annoying thing I could think of. Why not myself, you say? Because I don't like myself on camera.
I know. I'm taking the video down in two weeks...but eh...
From the mixed up files of Paperback Writer.
Journal #10.
December 27, 1993
Monday
You may hate me for the rest of my life. But I can't help that. I've finally gotten what I wanted to say out and I'm glad I did it.
I'm just sorry that it took me nearly two months to say it.
I've finally gotten over you. And if you happen to forgive me for writing this letter...well, you have my address and my phone number. I can't wait around and let the rest of my life pass be by.
What you did to me, I will eventually forget. And it may be a mistake to forgive you of it...but it will be my mistake and not your's.
So...be happy...with or without me. I know you've already done so. This is more a plea to myself to do the same.
Pat has nothing to worry about and you may tell her that.
I'm sorry I got mad at you. But I still feel that I'm justified to do so.
Write soon...please.
(I've removed the video...don't go looking for it!)
Keep in mind, this video won't be up for long. Perhaps two weeks. Then, I'm taking it down. Why? Just because, okay?
And now for a detailed analysis of my seventeen year old self.
Yes, Chris this journal entry is part of the Alpha saga.
If I am correct, I believe that this entry was prompted by Alpha dumping me. And this girl - Pat - was the one who prompted him to do so. Don't you love how I'm "finally over" him but in my last sentence I beg him to write soon?
What the f'k is that? Okay, okay. I was seventeen. I'll allow myself a little slack but do you know how much longer it took me to really be truly over him? Yeah, that's right. Another three years. Yes, obsessive thing, wasn't I?
Crap like this actually embarrasses me. How in the world does Loki put up with me? I must have done something right in a former life to deserve him.
But again, I'm the harshest critic of myself that comes to mind.
Anyway, in case you are wondering, why I focused on the picture of Loki and me, I thought it was more interesting that say...focusing on my computer. Which could possibly just be the most annoying thing I could think of. Why not myself, you say? Because I don't like myself on camera.
I know. I'm taking the video down in two weeks...but eh...
Labels: dating, frustration, geeks, life, Loki, love, moods, the past, truth
6 Comments:
If I was half as articulate as you I would have something amazingly wonderful to say. Instead...I'll just say...
Yeah, I still feel 17.
Well said, PW. It must be tough at 17.
Love is tough at any age. It's hard getting over people that we still want to be a part of our lives at the time. Loki is lucky too ya know!!!
Thank you. I like it. We can never completely understand our former selves. Don't get me started on Chris at 17! But I understand obsession. Before I had sex, I had crushes that lasted forever.
Isn't is wonderful and awful, how we love so deeply in our teen years, before we really even know what love means? I could have written a letter like this myself, to someone who dumped me at 16, who I kept thinking I was over, but I wasn't either, even while I dated and "fell in love" with other guys.
LG: But you're a lawyer! :)
And you do have amazingly wonderful things to say!
Seventeen? Yeah, I still feel seventeen too!
JLP: Yeah, it was. On the flip side, I feel like I was a drama queen back then!
SBS: Yes, Loki is very lucky. But then again, so am I. :)
Chris: Word and word.
Jami: Again, word and double word!
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